Californication

Its my new tv obsession. It has been taking me awhile to watch cause my eyes have been hurting alot lately(stupid computer screens). The Fourth season is dark. No spoilers though. I LOVE THIS SONG:

I have relearned the meaning of weekend.

Its been a long time since I've had a job or even school that required me to work 8-5 5 days a week. Therefore its been awhile since the weekend has been strictly defined.

I am still unsure of how I feel about it. Its nice to have something to look forward to during the week, but it was also nice having sleep in days in the middle of the week. So I'm on the fence.

Shoutout to my mom on Mother's Day! She does not read my blog but thats mainly because I don't let her. Anyways I am lucky to have such a kick ass Mom and I try to always appreciate her.

Also shoutout to my fake mom Jojo. This tour is not going to be the same without you to fill in for my real mom. I miss you :)

I feel like I should find something funny to put at the end of this but I am too lazy.Sorry.

Just in case.

If anyone was worried, I have not been fired. I appear to be able to do my new job, so far at least. Also everyone who works there is super nice, which is an exceptional change from my last job. And I'm excited because the new job will enable me to do the thing I want this summer (Unless I want to do things on weekdays). You still down for camping T-pain?! :)

Lesson learned: Things tend to be much worse in my head.I think I should already know this because of my many irrational fears but really you never know when something terrible is going to happen to make those fears be true.(That sounded much more depressing than I wanted it too. Ooops..)

Anyways this has been rambly. And I am sleepy. So far the worst part about the job is the 7am wake up time. After many months of waking up a like noon I was unprepared but I think next week will be better once I get on schedule. Nigggghhhhttt

Skeerrrrrrdddd

Tommorow I am starting my first legit grown up job. Up to this point I've only worked retail, waitressed or lifeguarded(Which can be legit career choices, no offence meant.) I guess I also worked at a call center..and at a dispatch but thats it. I guess I've had alot of jobs. What I really mean by first grown up job I guess is the first job I feel very unqualified for. I was actually interviewed for a customer service job but after I offhand mentioned I could use excel they decided that I should be interviewed for a contract clerk position instead. And I barely use excel. This is how the interview went:

Me: I can use excel.
Interview lady: Oh thats wonderful we should give you this much harder job.
Me: Well I can only do they basics really, I help my Stepdad do budgets for his company. But usually if I don't know how to do something I can figure it out.
Lady: You are hired (slight exageration)
Me: PANIC!


So I'm scared they are going to realized I'm a fraud and fire me.I don't think I exagerated my abilities but they made it seem much harder than what I know how to do. But I am excited not to have to wear a uniform and that I get to dress business casual. Hopefully they have some random video editing to do or an essay to write because that is where my real expertise lies.

Who wants to run away with me?

"Your always safe with me. I'm an excellent screamer."

So I'm pretty addicted to the office. I used to hate it but now that I've watched it all in a row I realize that I was mistaken.

Fav part ever:(At least one of them)

Plague

I'm pretty sure I'm dying. And I realized no one in the blog world would know because I am such a crappy blogger as of late. So here it is: I'm pretty sure I caught the plague from the dirtiest bathroom floor of life. And by plague I mean I have a ridiculous cough. The kind that makes other people stare/cringe at you. I'm pretty sure my step-dad/extreme germaphobe is avoiding me.

So if I never blog again assume I'm dead.


Actually that is probably a bad plan. Because I'm almost certain I'm being melodramatic. Except about the bathroom floor. It was sick and I definitely had skin on floor contact.

Never exercising again

I accidentally took my dog on an 11 k walk today. It made my hip hurt. And probably supremely heightened his walk expectations. Which will probably make him look at me all pathetic like and follow me around. My conclusion is: exercise blows.


You try having this pathetic face follow you around all day.

So I haven't blogged in awhile. Mainly because I'm lame. Actually all because I'm lame haha. But I'm going to start trying again. Maybe. If I get sufficient motivation that is.

The main reason I was inspired to write requires me to make a confession. I am an illegal downloader. Mainly because I'm poor but also partially because I don't like to leave my house. Don't judge me.

So whats with the ads on torrent pages? Do people really click on ads for busty russians? Are men downloading things really distracted by the possibility of meeting random internet brides who seemingly don't age, because the ads have been the same for years? Seems directed at weird lonely downloaders I guess.

Also Facebook managed to insult me as well with their ads the other day. Apparently because I have no relationship status on facebook and am a 23 year old female I should give single dads a chance. Apparently there is a website specifically for meeting single dads which women without children are free to join. I don't have a problem with single dads, I just think its stupid that this and ads for shoes are the only ones directed at me.

On a happier note I am super pumped for the Oscars(which is probably directly related to me being a weird downloader). I've watched all the nominations for best picture except for one which I cannot find. And the oscars are more fun when you've seen more than one of the movies.

So this has been rambly, hopefully it will tide you over if I do not get motivated to write more.

I miss Rush

A thought for my lovely sorority ladies during one of my fav times of year. :)


"She is the crescendo, the final, astonishing work of God. Woman...can there be any doubt that Eve is the crown of creation? Not an afterthought. Not a nice addition like an ornament on a tree. She is God's final touch, his piece de resistance. She fills a place in the world nothing and no one else can fill...
A woman at rest, a woman comfortable in her feminine beauty...is enjoyable to be with. She is lovely. In her presence you heart stops holding its breath. You relax and believe once again that all will be well. And this is also why a woman who is striving is so disturbing...'Like a fountain trouble,' as Shakespear said, 'muddy, ill-seeming, thick, bereft of beauty.'
Beauty is a quality of the soul that expresses itself in the visible world. You can see it, You can touch it. You are drawn to it...It's essence, says Thomas Aquinas, is its 'luminosity.' It is bound up with the immortal. Beauty flows from a heart that is alive.
And unveiling beauty is our greatest expression of love, because it is what the world most needs from us. When we choose not to hide, when we choose to offer our hearts, we are choosing to love.
There is something uniquely magnificent and powerful about a woman...There is a radiance in your heart that the world desperately needs." - John and Stasi Eldredge, from Captivating