Theme Songs

You know that song that you wished played when you walked into a room? This is now mine:



That way people would know not to mess with me.

(One of the head people at another company made me cry on the phone today. And the sucky thing is once I start crying I can't stop. I guess that is what happens when you keep your emotions all pent up)

For T-Pain

Have you seen this epic Paul Rudd moment?

24, Here I Come.

Tommorow is my Birthday. In an attempt find out if I blogged about my birthday last year, I went back and read a bunch of old posts. Which made me introspective about the year that has just passed.

I have changed alot. I've learned alot, especially about myself. I think I've grown up alot. And I'm ready for an age that I once considered ridiculously old.

Ever think back to when you were like 12 and had all these ridiculous impossible dreams that you had to do by the time you were like 18? That was me for sure.But I like to think I still have big dreams, but to get done by the time I'm like 30.

This might be too much introspection, because I'm at work (I haven't grown up too much haha).

Anyways, I'm excited to be rid of 23, which was good and bad in alot of different ways. I am definitely not ready for 25, but I have some time to get ready for it.

I think this year is going to be good. :)

Californication

Its my new tv obsession. It has been taking me awhile to watch cause my eyes have been hurting alot lately(stupid computer screens). The Fourth season is dark. No spoilers though. I LOVE THIS SONG:

I have relearned the meaning of weekend.

Its been a long time since I've had a job or even school that required me to work 8-5 5 days a week. Therefore its been awhile since the weekend has been strictly defined.

I am still unsure of how I feel about it. Its nice to have something to look forward to during the week, but it was also nice having sleep in days in the middle of the week. So I'm on the fence.

Shoutout to my mom on Mother's Day! She does not read my blog but thats mainly because I don't let her. Anyways I am lucky to have such a kick ass Mom and I try to always appreciate her.

Also shoutout to my fake mom Jojo. This tour is not going to be the same without you to fill in for my real mom. I miss you :)

I feel like I should find something funny to put at the end of this but I am too lazy.Sorry.

Just in case.

If anyone was worried, I have not been fired. I appear to be able to do my new job, so far at least. Also everyone who works there is super nice, which is an exceptional change from my last job. And I'm excited because the new job will enable me to do the thing I want this summer (Unless I want to do things on weekdays). You still down for camping T-pain?! :)

Lesson learned: Things tend to be much worse in my head.I think I should already know this because of my many irrational fears but really you never know when something terrible is going to happen to make those fears be true.(That sounded much more depressing than I wanted it too. Ooops..)

Anyways this has been rambly. And I am sleepy. So far the worst part about the job is the 7am wake up time. After many months of waking up a like noon I was unprepared but I think next week will be better once I get on schedule. Nigggghhhhttt

Skeerrrrrrdddd

Tommorow I am starting my first legit grown up job. Up to this point I've only worked retail, waitressed or lifeguarded(Which can be legit career choices, no offence meant.) I guess I also worked at a call center..and at a dispatch but thats it. I guess I've had alot of jobs. What I really mean by first grown up job I guess is the first job I feel very unqualified for. I was actually interviewed for a customer service job but after I offhand mentioned I could use excel they decided that I should be interviewed for a contract clerk position instead. And I barely use excel. This is how the interview went:

Me: I can use excel.
Interview lady: Oh thats wonderful we should give you this much harder job.
Me: Well I can only do they basics really, I help my Stepdad do budgets for his company. But usually if I don't know how to do something I can figure it out.
Lady: You are hired (slight exageration)
Me: PANIC!


So I'm scared they are going to realized I'm a fraud and fire me.I don't think I exagerated my abilities but they made it seem much harder than what I know how to do. But I am excited not to have to wear a uniform and that I get to dress business casual. Hopefully they have some random video editing to do or an essay to write because that is where my real expertise lies.

Who wants to run away with me?

"Your always safe with me. I'm an excellent screamer."

So I'm pretty addicted to the office. I used to hate it but now that I've watched it all in a row I realize that I was mistaken.

Fav part ever:(At least one of them)

Plague

I'm pretty sure I'm dying. And I realized no one in the blog world would know because I am such a crappy blogger as of late. So here it is: I'm pretty sure I caught the plague from the dirtiest bathroom floor of life. And by plague I mean I have a ridiculous cough. The kind that makes other people stare/cringe at you. I'm pretty sure my step-dad/extreme germaphobe is avoiding me.

So if I never blog again assume I'm dead.


Actually that is probably a bad plan. Because I'm almost certain I'm being melodramatic. Except about the bathroom floor. It was sick and I definitely had skin on floor contact.