My attempt to come to terms with the ridiculousness of my life..

Tuesday, June 26, 2012

Summer Vacay

Since I am a year round student(LAME), I only have a week of summer vacation but so far it has been pretty awesome. Here is what I've done so far:

1. I went on a artsy nature retreat thing. I felt unsure if this would be fun and almost skipped out on it. But it turned out to be pretty fun, even though it rained the entire time. The age range was from 14 to 25, with me being on the old end. But one of my good school friends went too and the guy we drove with ended up being super cool so it ended up being pretty fun. We stealth drank and went swimming in the rain. 

2. After the retreat(it was only a day and a night) we, Stefan(the school friend) and Dakota(the new driving friend) decided to go to hopewell rocks. It was pretty funny cause we were all like "Yes we just decided to go on vacation with strangers, its the best." And the rocks are pretty cool. I was fairly hungover and then I RAN INTO MY EX AND HIS ENTIRE FAMILY. It was pretty weird actually cause what are the chances of that happening. And that is a slight exaggeration. I actually got a text from the ex being like "This may sound weird but are you at hopewell rocks?" to which I replied "Yes, are you?" and he was like "Yup I guess I'm can recognize you from behind." To which I made a joke about him following me. I kind of assumed he'd be there with friends too for some reason, and that we'd cross paths cause he was apparently behind me. I didn't while on the rocks so I thought I'd gotten away with not talking to him actually. And then we went to the gift shop where I spotted Him and his family from afar. And then I informed my friends we needed to leave haha. But even if they did see me, I was with two boys so I win probably.

3. I then went home! And hung out with my family! And went swimming in a waterfall! And bought some ugly ass steal toed shoes for my new job! 

4. We also had pancakes and bacon and regular cake for my up coming B-Day.

5. I decided I'm excited for turning 25. I think its going to be a good year.

Thursday, June 21, 2012

Something New

So we went for a walk.
He brought his dog.
His dog peed on my floor.
Do y'all remember Camp Caribou? Cause I didn't.
I was awkward.
But he kissed me goodnight, and I'm still thinking about it.
And then my roommate proceeded to make fun of me for hours.

Also my semester is over and I am super pumped! Whoop whoop a week for summer vacay.(This is actually the worst.) Excited for the new semester, we're going to be making a web series Soap Opera. Should be awesome.

Now I must get back to watching Beauty and the Beast in the middle of the day, just because I can.

Monday, June 18, 2012

Weekend Fun

This weekend I let myself have a completely off weekend aka zero film stuff. Which was fantastic.(Minus the fact that now have many things to do this week. But I'm not freaking out.)

Friday I got to see my Best Buddy Jojo. Which I'm always happy about, cause I miss her like crazy! We went to a bachelorette which was also lots of fun cause I got to hang out with some lovely ladies I haven't seen much lately.

Since I got drunk on friday I was not planning on drinking saturday. But I was going to a comedy show that my roommate B was performing in, and one beer quickly spiralled into many beer.

So there is this comedian friend of B's that I always flirt with. He is kind of a dick but in a way that I find really hilarious if that makes any sense. Anyways another kind of friend, a friend I only hang out with in this particular environment, had previous slept with him so I felt kind of weird about the whole flirting thing. But then of course I got drunk, which lead to very flirty behaviour that I am embarrassed to write about.

So the whole drunken thing kicked in and I decided that I very rarely kind of like boys, and he seemed to also be into the whole flirting thing, so I did the terrible friend thing and made out with him, then took him home. NOT TO HAVE SEX. Which was different for me. Cause I was all like " I'm not having sex with you" and he was all like "ok" and then didn't push it at all! Which is weird, unexpected boy behaviour  I thought at least. So then we hung out till like 3 yesterday and it was all very fun. I think I might kind of like him.

BUT I FEEL SO BAD. I am never a bad friend(in the boy sense). The last time I went for a boy that my friend even kind of liked was in GRADE 10 WITH NIGEL. And I was with him forever so I stopped feeling bad about it. And that friend had just liked him. But I'm not that good of a friend with her. SO MUCH GUILT. And my only justification now is that I was drunk. TELL ME I'M NOT A HORRIBLE PERSON!

Sunday, June 10, 2012


To start this out honestly, I am a great big walking contradiction. This post will illustrate why.

So this guy I met at karaoke a couple weeks ago has been persistently texting me, wanting to hang out and such. But the more he texts me, and the more interested he seems in me, the more my dislike builds for this fellow. We are pretty compatible otherwise, as far as I can tell from text convos but I'm already feeling suffocated which I assume is a bad sign after a couple weeks.

I am not an independent person so I don't think that's the problem. (I know some people might disagree with this statement but I am all kinds of needy. Ask my Mom and my little Sister. I almost always need to be around people or animals.) I think what it is, is that I want everything to be difficult so when its not, I don't like it.

This has been a frequent trend in my life. As soon as a boy shows interest in me, I start to dislike them. I'm chalking it up to the fact that I am not in a place in my life where I think being in a relationship is feasible in the sense that I'm really focused on other things. But I think I'm actually romantically challenged. Or that maybe I just haven't met the right person? Or that I want to destroy things before I open myself up to getting hurt?

The thing is these boys are acting from what I can tell in a pretty normal way. The way I wished other boys would act.

Things just got a little to real there. Go back and look at the funny picture I found on pinterest. Or perhaps leave me some advice on how to cancel dates in a way that will make me look completely insane and makes this guy decide I am nuts and not want to date me?

Tuesday, June 5, 2012


So as a film student I feel a certain amount of pressure that I should be watching movies all the time. But not regular movies, like classics or artsy movies. But the last couple of days I have not felt like it, and I'm between television shows right now(I almost always watch tv while I eat. I know I shouldn't but I do it anyways cause eating alone is sad and its hard to eat and read in my bed. Did I mention that we don't have a real table? Besides the point). However what I have felt like watching are all my favourite movies, especially ones I forgot were my favs. So here is a list with my anecdotal comments of the last 5 movies I've watched.

1.Empire Records: If you haven't seen this movie yet, watch it immediately. It has young Renee Zellwiger and Liv Tyler and it is awesome. Makes me want to quite school and work at a record store.

2.Welcome to the Dollhouse: I technically watched this for school. It was really weird but it remind me of several movies I want to re-watch such as Empire Records, Strike!(Does anyone have this? I couldn't find it on the internet, also don't judge me).

3.Stardust: This is one of the best fantasy/magical movies. Every time I watch it I love it more. I also always forget I love it but it is amazing. The author whose story it is based on Neil Gaiman is also amazing.

4.Chicago: This won best picture and is a musical. I love musicals but this one is one of my particular favs. I think I love every song in it. I also want to live in the 1920s.

5.Tangled: Classic Disney. Has awesome songs and Zachary Levi is the voice of the male lead. I LOVE him and the show Chuck. I actually cried through the whole last season. But Tangled is great.

I also recently watched The Vow, Captain America, Scanners and Hearts of Darkness(A doc about the making of apocalyse now). They were all also very good.