My attempt to come to terms with the ridiculousness of my life..

Sunday, January 31, 2010

ho hum

My weekend was completely devoted to work so I have no interesting stories about it. I did miss what sounds like a hilarious moulin rouge themed bachelorette party, but I hear rumours that their might be a repeat in the near future. I have decided that older men might be my thing aka men that have about 20 years on me. Boys my own age have been pretty lame lately so I have plans to got move up in the age range. Plus there is this like 43 year old at my work that I have developed an irrational crush on. Anyways... sorry I am boring. later

Friday, January 29, 2010

Fill in the Blank Friday

Today is snowy and disgusting out so I decided not to go to class, which gave me sometime to catch up with the blog world. Seems like everyone is doing this fill in the blank friday which I think is a great idea. Also my life is boring so I had nothing else I really wanted to blog about but I am still trying to slack less in the blog world. So here it goes:

1.If I weren't a Student I would love to be Something that involves living somewhere that is perpetually sunny, where I could swim all the time.

2.When I am super upset I watch degrassi the next generation, because my life is never as bad as theirs or curl up in bed and ignore the world.Sleep cures most things.

3.If I found 100$ in the pocket of last winter's coat I would spend it on New boots because I want some and my fashionable boots have developed a leak.

4.Even though some people may consider it a flaw I love my scars because they all tell some kind of story, usually ones that are funny.

5. I love the way I feel when I get to go home after being away for a long time. Also the way I feel when you see people you love that you haven't seen forever.

6.I love my hair most when it isn't itching me, or getting in my way.

Well this was fun but I has some laying around that I have to get back too. Hope everyone has a great weekend!

Wednesday, January 27, 2010

Ever have a day..

Where the only person you want to talk to is your mom but you can't cause she is in Dubai..That was pretty much my day. I am home sick... or Mothersick.. probably both.

Fake Christmas

(the only pic of me and my mom that isn't a million years old)

Tuesday, January 26, 2010


I am probably one of the few people in the world who actually like public transportation. I like that it gives me some quiet time to think and listen to my ipod before I get to my destinations. Sometimes driving directly to a destination is not enough to to prepare mentally for the times ahead at school or work. So this is not a direct rant about having to take public transportation. However the bus system in my city blows. Especially at night. The only bus that goes anywhere near my house goes something like twice after 6 oclock, which annoying when I want to get home. Also the buses that connect o my bus go at stupid times at night as well. All I want in life is a bus schedule that goes at semi regular intervals, like every half hour, everyday, allday. I don't even care about the having to take 2 buses to get anywhere as long as it went at frigging regualar intervals. BLARG. Also I hate when its nice out all day(actually I like this but there is more to what I don't like) and then snow melt so there is a thin layer of water on the sidewalk that freezes when it once again gets cold and then is nearly invisible, causing me to fall when I walk on what appears to be regular side walk..ewuil;dwfiudefiui...blarg....

Monday, January 25, 2010


I need friend in my classes so I know what is happening in them like test and papers and such cause I have a hard time remembering that sort of thing. Somehow I remember ever shift at work but it can slip my mind that I am going to have a test or need to pass something in. So I make class friends and they normally remind me about such things. However today two of my bad qualities forgetfulness and avoidance combined to make me walk into a class, almost late, and then realize I had a test that day. Luckily it was on something that I at least semi remembered from last semester as well as class notes, to classes which I had attended. So it was not all bad. However, had I been more prepared, I definatly could have done better on this test than I am going to. I actually do have friends in this class which lead to the avoidance part. I have not been going on msn, which is one of my main form of communication with these friends because I have been avoiding dogtags. Since I had my epiphany and decided that I no longer wanted to waste my time with him he decided to show an increased interest in me, texting me almost everyday for like a week and a half but I think he is done now, which is good. I want that complication out of my life. Also I would like to return to msn so that people can remind me about such things.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

10 things..because I always listen to tpain..

Lets do this in countdown form:
10. I have perfectly symmetrical eyes. My eye doctor told me I should brag about this but I usually forget/ there is very little opportunity to do so.
9. I get scared of really stupid things, which makes it really irritating to have to stay home alone. I have a whole system of places I must check for murderers before going to sleep. Somehow I have allowed this tendencies to rub off on my little sister
8. I call my little sister little me because we are very similiar in personality. However she is like little me now rather than me when I was her age because she is exponentially more ok with herself and confident then I ever was at that age which leads me to believe she is going to surpass me in most things and I am find with that. She is someone I admire alot.
7. I have a ridiculously huge family, resulting from 3 marriages by both my parents. I like to think this has left me free of complexes but I doubt it. For example I think the being alone thing is because of this as I was never alone when I was younger. I love it though and can't imagine having it any other way.
6. I love summer. The main thing I love about summer is swimming. Sure I could go to a pool in the winter but I specifically love swimming outside in real water. Pools are not the same. I ultimately want to live somewhere I can go swimming outside all the time, as well as participate in other water related activities.
5. I also love campfires. I don't really care what time of year they are but I think sitting around a campfire is always a good time.
4. I like to add peanut butter to random foods like on oreos, or in my oatmeal. My roomate thinks this is disgusting but she doesn't like peanut butter, which I think is crazy.
3. I can be deadly shy. I'm at a weird point in my life where like half the people I know can't see that that is possible at all and the other half have witnessed it or else believe it because they have seen me as a more quiet person. I think this is strange but almost comforting at the same time.
2. I have lived in the high 20's of different houses. People who have never moved, or who lived in the same house their entire life are both mysterious and ridiculously appealing to me. I just want to be done with moving but at the same time I know I'm not where I want to be in life yet.
1. I feel like this last fact about me should be really epic and revealing. But all I got is this: I really hate peas, bananas and raisins. I have gotten to a stage in my life where I will eat them but they have to be cleverly disguised by other foods.

well this was fun but I don't think I'm going to tag anyone else just cause I'm lazy and I don't want to look and see who has already done it or who has already been tagged so other people aren't left out. So how about this I tag anyone who feels like sharing 10 random things about themselves.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

The year I am 22= the year I win things

My entire life up until this year has been punctuated with me never winning anything..ever. From cake walks to draws to sports events or anything of the sort I never won anything. Even when there was basically more cakes than participants in a cake walk(where they make you walk in a circle on paper numbers, which they then draw a number..if that makes any sense at all) I never won. Ever. But this year my luck seems to be semi changing. First I won a basket from fantasia,(which has proved useless to me as this basket is still untouched in my closet) but I was still pretty excited to have won anything in general. Then at my work Chrsitmas party I won a free pizza, which although it was a small prize, was still a prize and ultimately delicious. Then finally today I won an amazing giveaway from !!
I am quite excited, this was definately the highlight of my day. Yay! I'm going to have to start buying lottery tickets or gambling..something of that sort at least.

Sunday, January 17, 2010

All I know is this..

I am super duper tired... therefore I am going back to my shitty not blogging ways. Sorry to all my devoted and loyal fans, I with post some locations where I can be seen and you can send the paparazzi to make up for my lack of blogging. My life is pretty boring anyways, and when I think of something legit to write about or something fun happens to me I will post something. Until then sorry, but my iron deficiency is cause supreme lethargy and all I do is sleep anyways or think about sleeping. Or lay around, or think of how nice it would be to lay around.

This is almost exactly how I feel right now..

Kitties are silly and can sleep anywhere..

I wish I could fall asleep anywhere, such as this child can..

I just like puppies..this one is super cute..

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

I can't decide if I am an optimist or if I'm just dumb..

I was thinking about it, and I do not learn lessons well. There are numerous occasions in my life I repeated the same dumb behavior, convinced that it could only be better the second time. Examples:
1. The forefront example in my mind is my experiences with drinking wine. The first time I drank wine in any considerable amount I ended up losing my 300$ dolce and gabbana glasses in a graveyard, alone in the middle of the night. I then vowed never to drink wine ever again. Then this summer came around I was like, things can't possible be that bad again so I proceeded to drink wine. I then ended up in the drunk tank. Once again I vowed never to drink wine again. I have stuck to this so far but it has crossed my minds at times that I would probably be ok to drink some wine, which is clearly a stupid idea.

2.My fromer relationship with N. I constantly thought he would change and let him back in my life after numerous times vowing that this would be the last time I would ever get upset over him. And then I let him do it again, and again. I know alot of people understand this kind of thing but seriously at what point does it just get stupid to let people treat you in a certain way. He will never pick me over anything else and I should just forget about it. "We accept the love we think we deserve"-Confessions of a wallflower.

3. This is a more recent example. I had made it through 22 years without ever dyeing my hair and then one fateful day I decided I wanted a change. So I dyed my hair an awful color of blonde. When that didn't work I used another box of dye in order to improve this color. That did not help so I got panicky and decided I must dye it back. Which worked out well for a bit, except now its in a weird fading stage where my hair is like 5 different weird colors. And I want to dye it again because I have more brown hair dye. But this seems like a time where I might not be learning a lesson. I also had the same experience with cutting my own hair several years ago.

4. The last lesson I have not learned is related to my last blog. Dogtags. He has made it adamentely clear what he is about, and I have made several vows that the last time I hung out with him would be the last. And yet here I am being like maybe things will be different this time and he actually wants a relationship. But no I'm pretty sure I am just a stupid girl.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

I have become a blog slacker..

So I haven't been writing lately because I am boring. That is all. I have no other excuse. School has started again, and I have work as usual but its really actually taking up less of my time then last semester as I am taking one less class. So here is what has been happening in my life, at least today. I have almost fallen like 4 times and I actually fell once because its so friggin icy and my shoes aren't very grippy. One of the things I hate most about winter is ice and the fact that I am not coordinated enough to stand on it. Falling and catching myself from falling often causes pain which I don't like. Another thing that happened today, that has actually been happening for like a week now is that dogtags has been messaging me again and he would like to go to the movies this weekend. I haven't decided if I want to because he ignored me for a bit, which he did explain but he is still kind of a douche. He is doing better with making converstation lately tho. Today was also the first event for Rush(when we recruit new members) for my sorority. So I spent a large chunk of my afternoon hanging out with some of my favorite ladies.
My Favs this past Weekend

Me and this bear have alot in common..

Friday, January 8, 2010

This a short film made by my two film production buddies B and D. I thought maybe some people who read this might be able to relate to the sentiments portrayed.

Thursday, January 7, 2010

"Writing comes more easily if you have something to say"

This semester I am taking a film production class, mainly just because it sounded like it would be super fun. After having my first class today I am still convinced that it is going to be a pretty sweet class. There are a couple things that make it slightly less fun than I thought. The first thing is a boy. This boy was actually one of the very fist people I met at university and we have consequencely been friend for several years. The crappy part is he does not want to be just friends but has been in love with me pretty much since we met(his words not mine) and over christmas I told him that it was never going to happen(I thought it would be nicer in the long run, but I felt super bad about doing so). Anyways so he is no longer talking to me and acting really weird. But the main thing I think is not going to be fun about this class is that everyone has to write a five page script. and then everyone has to read them all and vote about which one we are going to make. This maybe doesn't seem that bad but I'm actually not that creative and I hate when people read my writing usually. So far my only idea is a musical account of my night in the drunk tank, complete with singing and choreographed dancing. In a class that is like 80% male I'm not sure how well this idea is going to go over. Anyways my point in writing this is that I need HELP!!!! Any ideas for a 5 page script that could easily be filmed would be great.

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Back to school..

I am now commencing it what I like to call the victory lap of my undergrad..basically killing time between now and hypothetical grad school, which allows you to take easy courses to pad your grades. My course load for this semester is pretty sweet but clearly nothing can top last semesters killer combo of zombies and horror(notice the pun haha). I applied to my first grad school yesterday making things all the more real because now I have actually paid money and feel commited to the idea. If I don't get in now I will be sad, and feel rejected. Perhaps I will have to go and pick up many boys in order to improve my self esteem.(Joke,as I don't really believe that will help)My basic point is that school start once again tommorow, as I didn't sign up for a tueday class until like ten minutes ago. And my point inside of that point is that I don't want to go and that vacations are never ever long enough.

Friday, January 1, 2010

New Years Resolutions

I think New Years is pretty overated. It has all this hype and then it ends up being like any other drunken party the rest of the year except that there is pressure to hook up and the highlight of the night is 12, when a regular night things would just be starting then. I also don't really think that new years resolutions really work. But I do think it as good of a time as any to think about the year and my life in general and think of things I would like to change. I feel like alot of things are going to change in big ways this year so I kept my New Years resolution pretty unambitious. Here they are:
1. Get rid of Black out drunk Robyn( I was going to say shitshow Robyn but she's not all bad haha. I figure the times that really bother me are the ones I don't remember)
2.Try and be healthier in general but more specifically floss more, cause I forget sometimes or am to lazy.
3.Try to be more proactive and less passive.(Something I am always generally trying to do)

2009 was an amazing year but it did also have its craptastic moments. I'm excited for 2010, I feel like alot is going to happen this year. Happy New Years Everyone!!