Persistance

To start this out honestly, I am a great big walking contradiction. This post will illustrate why.

So this guy I met at karaoke a couple weeks ago has been persistently texting me, wanting to hang out and such. But the more he texts me, and the more interested he seems in me, the more my dislike builds for this fellow. We are pretty compatible otherwise, as far as I can tell from text convos but I'm already feeling suffocated which I assume is a bad sign after a couple weeks.

I am not an independent person so I don't think that's the problem. (I know some people might disagree with this statement but I am all kinds of needy. Ask my Mom and my little Sister. I almost always need to be around people or animals.) I think what it is, is that I want everything to be difficult so when its not, I don't like it.

This has been a frequent trend in my life. As soon as a boy shows interest in me, I start to dislike them. I'm chalking it up to the fact that I am not in a place in my life where I think being in a relationship is feasible in the sense that I'm really focused on other things. But I think I'm actually romantically challenged. Or that maybe I just haven't met the right person? Or that I want to destroy things before I open myself up to getting hurt?

The thing is these boys are acting from what I can tell in a pretty normal way. The way I wished other boys would act.

Things just got a little to real there. Go back and look at the funny picture I found on pinterest. Or perhaps leave me some advice on how to cancel dates in a way that will make me look completely insane and makes this guy decide I am nuts and not want to date me?

MOVIES!

So as a film student I feel a certain amount of pressure that I should be watching movies all the time. But not regular movies, like classics or artsy movies. But the last couple of days I have not felt like it, and I'm between television shows right now(I almost always watch tv while I eat. I know I shouldn't but I do it anyways cause eating alone is sad and its hard to eat and read in my bed. Did I mention that we don't have a real table? Besides the point). However what I have felt like watching are all my favourite movies, especially ones I forgot were my favs. So here is a list with my anecdotal comments of the last 5 movies I've watched.

1.Empire Records: If you haven't seen this movie yet, watch it immediately. It has young Renee Zellwiger and Liv Tyler and it is awesome. Makes me want to quite school and work at a record store.

2.Welcome to the Dollhouse: I technically watched this for school. It was really weird but it remind me of several movies I want to re-watch such as Empire Records, Strike!(Does anyone have this? I couldn't find it on the internet, also don't judge me).

3.Stardust: This is one of the best fantasy/magical movies. Every time I watch it I love it more. I also always forget I love it but it is amazing. The author whose story it is based on Neil Gaiman is also amazing.

4.Chicago: This won best picture and is a musical. I love musicals but this one is one of my particular favs. I think I love every song in it. I also want to live in the 1920s.

5.Tangled: Classic Disney. Has awesome songs and Zachary Levi is the voice of the male lead. I LOVE him and the show Chuck. I actually cried through the whole last season. But Tangled is great.

I also recently watched The Vow, Captain America, Scanners and Hearts of Darkness(A doc about the making of apocalyse now). They were all also very good.

Drunk Sundays, Cause Mondays don't suck enough without a hangover

So last night we(Me, Michelle W., Tia and Tia's France French Roomate) decided to go to Karaoke night at a local bar. I'm not sure why this seemed like a good idea, but at the time it seemed like it would be lots of fun which it was. I guess its only today I'm regretting it because I'm tired and no feeling tiptop. I have two different tangents for this story though.

1. The Crazy Neighbour Tangent


So I recently discovered that I have more than one super creepy, terrifying neighbour. This new one is I'm pretty sure some kind of drug dealer plus cracked out on hard drugs. All day yesterday he was out on our lawn, and everytime I left my building he would "Hey Girl" me, hit on me, then immediately forget who I was. Hopefully this means he still doesn't remember me. Anyways, he was drinking so when we decided we were going out, I was like he is definitely going to be there because its the only bar open on Sunday. Tia thought I was being paranoid but the very first person we saw when we got there was this crazy guy. He immediately hey girled us again, and showed us a giant handful of bills all crumpled up. He was escorted out of the bar, within a half hour of us getting there. I'm terrified that in the summer he will frequently be sitting on the lawn. I will say again, I need to move.

2. The Regular Bar Tangent (In which I assume I make an ass of myself)

So for unknown reasons once we get to the bar I decide I want to make friends at the table beside us. I peer pressure the sober driver of the group into dancing with me, then proceed to try and talk to them for awhile. I say try because I never heard any of their responses. But apparently they thought I was semi amusing cause the sober guy I was harassing got my number.  I also think I made an ass out of myself because I got up and sang THREE TIMES. The only other time I have sang at karaoke was with Brendan singing summer nights. My sober friend also blatantly lied to me by saying I did well. I know I didn't(not in a self deprecating way) I hella cannot sing. Like at all. But over all it was quite the fun night.

End Of an Era

One of my Best Friends T-Pain(T-Raging if you will) is about to embark on a major adventure and is moving exactly a million miles away. I know its going to be awesome, but dear god am I ever going to miss you. I was going to get sappy and emotional, but I feel like that might not be our style aka straight up gangsta(Plus it is hard to put into words how important you've been in my life). University may be over, but I hope this is a friendship that will last way longer than that anyways. (Blog Peer Pressure/ You're stuck with me FOREVER)

The Most Old School Picture I could Find.(How are you more tanned than me?)

Canadian Weather

I've lived in Canada my entire life so I should know better. But every so often I ignore what the weather network has to say, and I dress how I feel should be appropriate judging from the previous days of the week. Today was one of those days. Although it said it was 2 degrees Celsius and rainy, I wisely decided I would be okay in a hoodie and my rain jacket which provides as much warmth as a paper bag. And then I got to stand outside filming for like 3 hours. The filming was fun minus the bone chilling cold I was experiencing. The next worst time for cold filming I've experienced was in minus 20 degree weather, when I decided to wear my fashionable boots instead of my warm boots. I came home and stood in the shower for like a half hour and then cranked the heat in my room.I just want it to be summer. SO. BAD. Also my class now has a youtube channel so everyone should subscribe to it: http://www.youtube.com/user/SquigglyBirdFish?ob=0&feature=results_main

I do youtube now

Want to see an instructional video I made for school(the answer is probably no)?

Here is the link:


Maybe you'll learn something?

Growing

Its at this point in University that I would have given up and said "Hey who cares if I'm going to get an 89 or a 79, thats barely a leter grade." But College has turned me into an over-achiever. I'm all like " Man I could get at 95, 85 is a crap mark." Either I'm growing as a human being, or I'm turning into a monster.

I'm not going to spell it out

Sometimes I'm not very smart.

200th Post

Flashback to my 100th post: I had just gotten my wisdom teeth out.

So as a special treat I thought I would talk about my teeth again.

As you may know from my previous post, today I went to the dentist. And I was excited to go, which is not normal dentist going behavior. The reason I was excited to go was because I haven't been in about 4 years(this is my conservative estimate, I actually have no idea). This mainly because dentists are expensive and also because I was never around Pictou where my dentist live. Excuses aside, its probably because I am a huge procrastinator/ use my money for impractical things.

I have had some persistant jaw pain which I thought was going to go away with my wisdom teeth but it didn't. And then I started to get scared that my teeth were actually rotting away, and therefore causing the pain.(I think about my teeth alot. Its a weird thing. I also brush/floss alot so this fear was kind of irrational).

So today when I went to the dentist I was expecting to have like 10 cavities and have to have half my teeth replaced with fake ones and alot of other awful dental work. But apparently my teeth are fine. Yay!Apparently all the brushing and flossing has paid off. Although he didn't really tell me what to do about my jaw.

This post is actually really long and pointless. Just be glad I didn't feel the need to tell you all about this in person.

March Break

This is what going to do over March Break:

Go to the Doctor.
Go to the Dentist.
Get my passport renewed.
Possibly get my haircut.
Watch 100 movies(exactly 100.
Hang out with my fam.
Read 100 books.


And I am SUPER PUMPED. (No sacasm at all, really. This is exactly what I want to do. Straight up. Although the longer I type this parantheses the more it sounds like sarcasm, but it really really isn't. I think this will be awesome :))